Scribbles on the table

defying gravity

2010-03-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

So...school's starting in slightly over 7 hours.
March hols have been...slackish.
Couldn't really go out cos of the wisdom tooth extraction, which really is a shame
Guess we'll need to make time to meet during term, eh?

I wanted to say something...but I can't remember what! D:

ohwell, let's hope this one's a good one.

I'll make it a good one, I swear.

meme

2010-03-14T21:44:00.003+08:00

Bold the truths:

I am a morning person. (Morning to me means the sun is up and it's before noon)
I am a perfectionist.
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my PJs.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to MySpace.
I’m shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I currently regret something I have done. (not done, rather)
When I get mad I curse. (in my head!)
I don’t like anyone. (wow so emo)
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy jazz music.
I have a car.
I have a cell phone.
I have a pet.
I have at least one brother or sister.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I’m smart.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humour.
I have had a broken bone.
I have caller ID on my phone. (doesn't everyone? o.o)
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have had surgery.
I have killed another person. ( :O )
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the cops called on me.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.
I have kissed someone of the same gender.
I have mood swings.
I have rejected someone before. :/
I have seen the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
I have watched Sex and the City.
I like Shakespeare.
I love to cook.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I miss someone right now. (people. ij :()
I own over 100 CDs.
I own over 100 DVDs.
I own and use a library card.
I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I will try ALMOST anything once.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I can name all seven dwarfs from Snow White.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I am currently waiting for someone.
I lost contact with someone.
I hate Miley Cyrus.
I think Party In The USA is catchy.
I’d date Harry Potter.
I can name all the past presidents of the United States.
I know who was president before George Bush. (the younger one)
I love pickles.
I need the internet to live.
I prefer vanilla over chocolate.
I watched Star Trek.
I watched all six movies of Star Wars.
I own an Xbox.
I think music is life.

2010-03-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

It's the little things that make me happy...like studying for GP.

Wow I feel like such a nerd.

But a happy nerd :)

JK Rowling's Harvard graduation speech.

Inspiring stuff.

2010-02-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

Reasons for not sleeping at 1.05am. On a school night:

1. Waiting for ipod to finish charging.

2. Trying to get the motivation to do econs research :(

3. Slept for a couple hours before dinner. Can't sleep now.

4. Actually #3 is not completely true. I'm just recently finding sleep a waste of time.
It's more like... don't want to sleep now.

ie, body tired, mind says otherwise

5. Busy bloghopping, reading about everyone's stressed out lives to make myself feel better.

6. It's like the only alone time I can get around here

7. The Internet.

8. Mulling over the sad details of my decrepit life (does that make sense? sorry it's 1.30am now)

Because nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it

2010-02-19T21:54:00.002+08:00

So many questions, so little time.

oh so greeky

2010-02-13T22:37:00.010+08:00

According to greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with two faces.
Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts,
condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.

2010-02-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

How can I miss you if you won't go away?
:/

2010-02-06T18:06:00.001+08:00

fml
:(

confused and uninspired

2010-01-24T00:11:00.002+08:00

sigh.
I don't know what I want any more.
=/

crap.
I thought I did.

I think that may have been the sleep deprivation talking.
All's well...for now.

2010-01-17T16:00:00.001+08:00

I'm legal, baby :D

2010-01-09T17:51:00.003+08:00

So school's starting in...less than 2 days.
Time to start packing the bags, removing the nail polish and waking up at 5+am again.
Thing is, I, like every other student ~~in this godforsaken country~~ would still like to slack about doing nothing for the next few months or so, thank you very much.

Econs video is irritating. So are 4pg econs essays.
This then leads to the very significant question: So why am I taking it as a h3?
At this point in time, at least, I can't really give you an answer that isn't based on the idealism of "I sort of like it...I think. Oh and someone told me is was useful."

Yes, I'm in a bad mood. Haven't been sleeping well. Don't really feel like moving about or doing anything. May be the hormones, or the "I don't bloody hell want to go to school" Monday Blues, which kick an extra punch.
Whatever it is, it better go away by Monday :\

The good thing about school, I guess, is the staying out of the house bit.
Does it ever seem like the space's so small until you can't move anywhere without stepping on someone's foot? (literally and metaphorically)
I'm not really sure what you want from me, so not saying anything seems to be the best policy...except that it's not.
Aiya THIS is why I need that scholarship.
Thing is, I'm not even sure if I'm gonna get it..
and I have no clue what to do.

whooo 2010

2009-12-31T23:00:00.003+08:00

Let's hope it'll be a good one.

taken from here

random resolution generator, for all the bums (like me!)

hey soul sister

2009-12-28T00:12:00.003+08:00

heard this on the radio the other day,

from the same people who brought you "drops of jupiter"

hohoho

2009-12-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

So how was your Christmas?

adventure is out there

2009-12-19T12:43:00.010+08:00

they're so sweet I swear they'll give you cavaties (and I mean this in the best way possible)

Watched it recently, and let me just say, there's hope for animated films just yet.

They somehow manage to make a flying balloon house seem...believable, which is great cos some of the latest disney films are just...cringable. coughhsmcough

haha it embodies what I like so much about Pixar films: humour, a bit of adventure, and most of all, heart.

At the end of the day, I guess after all the adventures...
what really matters is the little things, y'know?

hmm

Note to self: find recipes to bake next week

2009-12-18T20:46:00.006+08:00

Hmm life's been...mundane? In a...yay-school's-out kind of way, so it's not that bad :)

And... I've finally caught Juno.

Legally, okay.

It's like a happy pill or something, seriously.
96 minutes of your life that's definitely more well-spent than watching a soccer match.

Best bits, imho:

Juno: I just wonder if like, two people can ever stay together for good.
Dad: Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are.
Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.

and...

I just like being a piece of furniture in your weird life

:D
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In other, more depressing news, I still have a 4 page essay + godknowshowmany mock exam papers to do for holiday homework.
Whoopdedo

It's a week till Christmas!

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hahaha damo said this to me during op prep

nicked from here

because lists are nice and good

2009-12-16T23:48:00.004+08:00

90 Things Girls Need To Know About Guys
(it's actually a facebook group. They really do have groups for everything.)

My top 5: (either cos they're oh-so-true, or they made me laugh)

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!... ugh... nevermind..." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
(yes, yes they do. *I'm rolling my eyes here*)

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
(They can continue "thinking" up till 2am. And they're not afraid to tell you about it either. Who needs sleep, eh?)

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

60. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
(hahaha gotta love this one. I'd 'like' it if I could.)

63. Guys relate everything a lot of things to sex... a joke, a slip of the tongue, a giggle, a yawn, a stretch, whatever...its stupid but true.
(yes, it really is. True and stupid.)

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Avatar tomorrow...and I'm the only girl in the bunch. Again.
bleah =/

that's just sweet. aw

8 more days to christmas

shoes

2009-12-11T21:59:00.002+08:00

yay new shoes :D

496: JUST BECAUSE ALGAE SETTLES, DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD TOO.
taken from here

kahang

2009-12-05T15:28:00.008+08:00

Back from kahang;
home sweet home, indeed.

It's been a crazy 4 days climbing 'mountains', walking in rivers, feeding mosquitoes and/or leeches, taking a walk in the forest at night, trying to aviod...certain people who ought to be avoided, hoping my clothes will dry on time and trying not to get freaked out by the insects dropping from the ceiling.
I don't regret going for it, though :)
I like to think we all came out better people from the eh...experience
and also checking my phone for...(dare I say it?) aw-worthy smses
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gah my phone just decided to go through "a phase" and delete all my messages,
even those I saved in a folder D:
(though this might be because it got soaked by the rain. whoops)
hmm maybe this's is a sign,
for a fresh start or something
ahwell

OCIP

2009-11-27T12:20:00.005+08:00

OCIP in Batam from 22 nov-25 nov
2 words to describe it:
Freaking Awesome

Rushing like crazy to finishing building it in the day,
and crashing the guys' room to play cards/watch tv/ fight over pillows in the night
:):):)

From this:

To this:

rest of the photos up on trusty ol' facebook
♥ 1T14 '09

mcdreamy?

2009-11-18T23:28:00.005+08:00

Did you just quote Gandhi to me?

haha still really like Grey's, just haven't found the time to properly sit down and watch everything.

sighh
supermarkets will never be the same again :/

roses are red, churches are blue, waffles with honey are cheap, and you're an idiot

2009-11-15T15:40:00.013+08:00

Fund raising at the unholy (pardon the pun) time of 8am on a Sunday morning all the way at Queensway.
It was surprisingly sucessfull...considering my class is weelll...yeah..t14. (I'll leave you to decipher for yourself what that means)
$400 in an hour, baby :D
so proud of all of them(us)

Lovely old gentleman who donated the money and then gave the rose to me.
haha I think my heart melted just a little right then and there
It's times like these where my faith in humanity is restored.

...

I suspect this is the cheapo Singaporean in me speaking, but...
did you know Ikea serves really cheap breakfast? (and no, they're not paying me to advertise)
Found out this morning when we realised we had nothing else to sell after an hour.
And since we were hanging out with 20+ guys, the logical move was, apparently, to find food.
Mmm...
friday 13 nov 2009. Officially the worst day of the year.
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386: took the words right out of my mouth.
Funny how things work sometimes.

2009-11-13T20:52:00.003+08:00

And I'm pretty sure he was happy with his final resting place, because he was buried on the mountain.
And that was against the law.

The Bucket List :)

inspiration from the unlikeliest of places (or maybe not?)

2009-11-13T00:53:00.003+08:00

We wanted to grow up to be ballerinas, chiefs, teachers, airline stewardesses, pilots, astronauts...

What happened to that?

hmm

vsq

2009-11-04T21:20:00.006+08:00

Vitamin String Quartet: covering Hallelujah by Paramore

Great stress reliever, imho.

Turn the volume up,
Listen.
...and be in awe :O

uninspired

2009-11-01T14:45:00.005+08:00

taken from here

So, chinese As tomorrow...
...and I guess I'm as prepared as I'll ever be.
Which is no say, not much at all.
But oh well, I don't think ploughing through the textbook's gonna be of much use anyway.

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arghh craving chocolate D:

OP is...bleah. Could go better.

I've lost the ability to organise my thoughts.
It's just...scattered.

whoo hoo
Isn't it just...fun.
Not.
I can't keep doing this D:
oww my left arm hurts :(

I need some time off.

2009-10-17T12:11:00.011+08:00

(500) days of summer was...
wow. Fantastic.

Just... go watch it. Really.

" This is a story of boy meets girl. But you should know up front, this is not a love story, it's a story about love. "

I.. don't even know how to describe it.
It sort of makes you ponder, you know? About...life in general I guess, not just love. I mean... Do certain things just happen because of fate? (whatever that is)
Or... are "All things just coincidences".
The fact is, sometimes things just... don't work out, fate or no fate.
And all we can do is move on, look for greener pastures and guess what? Try again.
Fail again?
Hm maybe. But what more can anyone ever do?
right..?

sigh

2009-10-14T19:37:00.003+08:00

hm chinese was.. well, chinese.
Got "living on a prayer" stuck in my head throughout the whole paper...
haha somehow... I don't think that's a very auspicious sign :/

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Promos are officially over, for most.

....

so..

now what?

2009-10-10T16:31:00.001+08:00

sigh.
Just get it over and done with, already.
...

4 more days to go!

kuku

2009-10-07T18:17:00.005+08:00

Quick update:

in the midst of promos

-studying strategy seems to comprise of putting my notes in a circle and sitting the middle hoping to absorb something.
Needless to say, it doesn't seem to be working very well.

-colac is a life saver. (especially for people who lose their notes at crucial periods of time. ie. me.)

-stress relieve comes in the form of crazy classmates who sms me at 10pm telling me I'm "phat".

-that and alternating between reading about shm and discussing the prospect of hiding in the bushes to spy on a certain...... someone after promos.

yes, underlining random phrases makes me feel like I've got some warped power over things.
..and yes, I do think I'm going slightly mad from the studying too.

and down the rabbit hole we go
wheeee

stupidstupidstupid

2009-09-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

oh shit.
I just did a stupid thing.
Bloodyfreakinghell.

why ask a question if you don't want to know the answer, eh?

['.']

lists

2009-09-27T16:55:00.011+08:00

Things that make me :)
#1 (Good) music
#2 5 way phone conversations
#3 msn convos at midnight (plus minus half an hour)

Honestly, you haven't really, truely, lived unless you've had some combination of the above 3.
It's pretty darn awesome. especially if you combine all three together.

haha and we've learnt that
"Guy language" apparently comprises of 2 words: "Huh" and "What".
seriously.
or maybe it's just the guys we know lah :\
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he sounds a little like a young ewan mcgregor here

across the universe <3

watching it is pretty near the top of my "things to do after promos" list.
Right next to "getting 8 hours of uninterupted sleep" and
"having a nice long gossip session with people I haven't seen in ages".
:D

ahh off to mug econs now
cheers

2009-09-25T21:00:00.001+08:00

2009-09-22T16:18:00.009+08:00

Mmm it's been ages since I was home this early. [ arrived home at 3! :O ]
It feels great.
Apparently we're using some "intensive revision timetable" where everyone ends school at 1 or 2 everyday.
Haha if this's "intensive" then I reaallly don't mind :D

Last week in a nutshell:
5-way gossip session till 12mn.3hour lunch @ golden rooster.sleep deprived.bizarre-o interview.fingers & toes crossed.trying to understand crappy physics.written report. written-freaking-report.youtubeyoutubeyoutube. classmates trying to influence my music tastes over msn.

.....

I've gotten 2 "are you very stressed?" and 3 "you need to sleep, why are you always so tired" this past week.
Am I?
hmm either that or the guys are waayy too relaxed.
Can't wait for promos to be over!
3 more weeks
gogogo

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& I'm discovering that jack johnson, marie digby, Queen & colbie caillat make quite a happy combo of music to listen to

2009-09-14T20:45:00.003+08:00

Oh the hell.
I just saw the... infamous video of a certain Ms S'pore World winner.
Call it a morbid curiousity.
.......

I think a little bit of my soul just died.

To be fair, it's not as bad as I've heard.
But then again, that's not saying much, is it?

check it out here...
if you dare.

ouch.

it's not the only thing freaking me out D:
how now brown cow

conference calls! (:

2009-09-12T16:29:00.014+08:00

5 -way phone conference calls ROCK. :D

haha throw in 4 of my... not entirely sane fellow t14-ers and you've got yourself a crazily surreal conversation.

Think it can't get any more bizarre?

We crossed the 2hour mark somewhere around 2am I think. (phone died halfway through, so I'm not too sure of the exact time cos I switched to my hp)

Apparently staying up till unholy hours is a little like getting drunk.
People start spilling their deep, dark secrets, singing along to the teletubbies theme song, and speculation on the sexual inclinations of certain... uniform groups.

haha maryann! I think my 2nd resolution just went flying out of the window, never to return.
whoops.

whoo! round 2 in 7 hours or so.
Can't wait :D
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EDIT: oh shit. Suddenly things start to make sense. Bloody freaking hell.

2009-09-09T14:10:00.001+08:00

Today... is a bad day.
Don't know why; just is.
bah

hugo the lizard

2009-09-06T01:41:00.004+08:00

it's the september hols!
No more waking up at 5am and having to deal with retarded classmates for a week!
:D

" this song is meant to keep ya
from doing what you're supposed to
like waking up too early.
Maybe we can sleep in
I'll make you banana pancakes
pretend like it's the weekend now. "

haha very apt, since I was listening to this at 1am on friday morning trying to mug for the econs test in 7 hours.
Definately was "keeping me from doing what I'm supposed to".
Well, that and having 4 msn convos at the same time.
And I thought I was the only insomniac around.

It went well, I think, just in case you're wondering.
The econs test, I mean.

I can't go on, I'll go on

2009-09-02T19:38:00.003+08:00

bandslam <3

2009-08-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

"My sense of time is getting a little... warped."

Too true, dude.
haha we've taken to marking time according to night study.
"Eh it's only 8.30! Not even break time yet!"

whoa 2nd post today..!
eh wait, it's almost 1am already, so it's not Saturday anymore.
see what I mean? :O
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grr wr is monopolising my time

the mild ginseng type...? I should hope not.

2009-08-29T12:52:00.003+08:00

There's a... certain beauty and liberation in anonymity,
that you won't (and can't) fully appreciate until you've lost it.
f,l&b was less than 3! :D

2009-08-23T22:26:00.001+08:00

Next week's gonna be crazy.
7am till 10pm.
Bring it on.

night study

2009-08-19T00:12:00.001+08:00

tired, happy, accomplished.
:)

There's something to be said about not bringing work home.

300th post, baby!

2009-08-14T16:54:00.011+08:00

Somehow, I didn't expect night study to be this.......
dramatic.

Productive, certainly.
But all the extra nonsense... well... they definitely made things that much more interesting.

I even got an *ahem* "honourable mention" during wednesday's morning assembly.
Didja catch it?
hahaha
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Double GP lessons should always be like that. Yes, it was as unproductive as it gets, buuutt all the nonsense talking/ insult throwing/ random bursts of laughter/ APPLE DROPPING ON THE FLOOR was.... so totally worth it.
:D
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" You're not the rule, you're my exception. "

ah one of the sweetest line ever.
Kudos to you if you know which movie it came from.
Y

technology hates me :(

2009-08-09T23:23:00.003+08:00

east coast park was a lovely getaway from it all..!
Mmm the sea breeze

Getting there, on the other hand, was not so lovely.
Long story short, cabs burn a hole in your pocket.

Tried (and succeeded to an extent I suppose) to take artsy "contemplative" pictures on the breakwater.
whooee! :D

Yes, and apparently, the Premier Taxi website has a "lost & found list", which somehow makes me feel just a little bit better about not being the only careless excuse of a person to leave something in a cab.

Oh wow, someone left a BMW car key in there!
I kid you not, go look yourself!

Ohyeah it's National Day.
I did the patriotic thing by wearing my red house shirt today.
What did you do?

2009-08-07T22:24:00.004+08:00

Since when has the concept of normality become so.......
unnormal?

argh I need more time.
or two of me.
or both.
I'm sorry! I'm not ditching you lot, I swear. I just... argh I dunno. I just need to talk to people who're on the same wavelength as me sometimes, y'know? There's so much a single glance, a (sarcastic) laugh, a meaningful grin can carry. You just have to know the person well enough.

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jc is messing up my sleep cycle. seriously.
Look what happened to me last saturday:
7pm: fell asleep before dinner, intended to wake up at 9
Actualy woke up at... :
12.30am- went to grab a bite, couldn't go back to sleep AT ALL, talking to whoever's left on msn and got to work on eom.
All the way till...
4am, where I finally crashed back to bed;
only to wake up 4hours later at 8am, feeling perfectly fine.
what. on earth.

uno, dos, tres

2009-08-06T17:48:00.008+08:00

This week I...
- learnt how to say "have you eaten" in hokkien. During chinese lessons.
Haha we gave up listening to the poor laoshi ( & figured it was close enough to mandarin anyway)
chiak pa liao?

-wondered (for the nth time) what on earth I'm doing in a 4h2 science class when I don't ( particularly enjoy or) even know why I'm taking any of my subjects.
And I still wonder, from time to time, why didn't I try for ELL?
youth is wasted on the young.
We're supposed to be at the prime of our lives... and we're sitting in a stuffy old physics class trying to figure out what R equals to..??
There's gotta be more to life.

-realised that we have a lot a lot A LOT of inside jokes.
haha "he has the Midas touch! Sure win already! no one would want to touch the pieces!"

-found my expectations(or what's left of it) of what makes a guy, well... a guy, eroded just a little bit more.
Apparently, the safest place to hide is... the male toilet. Proven twice.
Annd.. I have a (guy) classmate who brings moisturiser to school to smell??
can anyone say...
what. the. hell.

-am looking forward to east coast park cycling! :D

National Day holiday on monday!
fanfreakingtastic
:)
[for the record, I find this year's national day song much more listenable than all the awful Im-trying-too-hard-to-appeal-to-the-~~politicians~~masses ones we've been getting recently.]

2009-08-04T23:10:00.001+08:00

oh my freaking ankle.

tutorials,tutorials,tutorials...

gah

I can't wait for my national day holiday :(
to catch up on...stuff.

2009-07-31T17:46:00.007+08:00

my day:
-sleep deprived = I can't deal with you right now
-oddly quiet backrow
-getting cornered by a teacher for ~~weird~~ unusual reasons. Again.
-friday chats are less than three!
-pe was... pe.
-teststeststests next week

OMG PROMOS IN 2MONTHS
diediedie
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haha I think being in a class with 90++% guys can make me ~~a little~~ spoilt.
case(es?) in point:
1. I haven't queued for my own food since...uhm... term1? *sheepish grin*
2. Whining usually gets me what I want HAHA
3. I've got guys chasing away lizards for me with a ruler when I start screaming and climbing on tables
4. They don't fight back when I start whacking them
5. I don't get in trouble with teachers, cos I look like a (homework-doing) saint next to the lot of them.
6. I can generally count on people to help me carry notes/ clean the white board/ clear the plates/ basically do all the manual labour without feeling like I'm bullying them because they're guys.
It's good for their egos lah

I mean obviously there're downsides too, but life is, as of now, pretty darn great
; even with all the stress of pw and promos and whatnot
:D

ahh I hope everyone can continue with our 4h2 combi next year.
It'll just be soso sad if anyone has to change class

2009-07-30T20:09:00.018+08:00

You know those days where you're utterly lethargic,
time seems to speed up and slow down in random spurts...
and no matter how hard you try, nothing ever seems to get done?

Yep. It's been one of those.
[Though all the nice long rubbishy chats/3-way insult exchange we've been having during chinese/GP/whatever we deem "free time" sort-of makes it all better.
Funnily enough, we don't get caught o.o
Yes, apparently, an all-boys school really is as bad an idea as it sounds.
hahaha some of the things they do are really ?!?!?!]

I read somewhere(the Straits Times I think) recently that if you want to write well, you need to really know what you're trying to convey, "and not just throw some words in the general vicinity".
Hmm... something to keep in mind while I'm trying to bang out an intro for the WR, I think.

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And I shall end with a:
Happy Birthday Nicole!
You're (finally) seventeen!
(though it's not a milestone to be reached, that I know of, anyway, unlike 16 or 18 or 21, which are somehow special-er)
Anyway....
Keep smiling, making odd comments with a straight face, talking to/about your cats, arranging your pencil box in a highly ocd-like manner and all your little idiosyncrasies that make you, so very you.

Shopping trip in Bangkok/HK after 'A's yeah? :D

Yours,
Denise :)

2009-07-27T23:45:00.003+08:00

today was an interesting(read: bad) day.
I got cornered by my physics tutor while trying to rush off home, for an utterly inane reason.
I missed my 966 (by like 5 sec) because of said cornering.
It started to rain like there's no tomorrow.

And before all of that happened.......
We now have to change places.
The best part is, no one knows exactly why.
It's not the grades, it's not the behaviour ( I think our tutors got used to the crazyness already)
..............
apparently, it's been blown entirely out of proportioned;
to become some warped "us vs them" debacle.

And I'm just irritated that
I've just started settling down in my new place,
and now we've got to move all over again?!
This sucks.
aw, you're a sweet kid.
omg pls dont let it be true

2009-07-26T22:01:00.011+08:00

it's an ambigram! flip it around and you still see my pretty name :)
ahh I bet there're some of you trying to twist your head 180 degrees right now
credit goes to the incredibly talented Mary Ann Lim.
Thank you! (times *insert really big number here*)
:D

Parent teacher meeting's over. Thank goodness.
Who needs a mind reader when you can just look at my face?
Yes, apparently, I reflect appall very well.
She thinks I ought to ____________.
I was actually already considering it, but..... to hear it being said,
just makes it seem more real, you know?
And scary. Very. What if? What if? What if?
I don't even know where/how to start!
I need time to think.

Annd I'm disappointed that my goal of "not being complacent" just got flushed down the drain. This weekend was like... catchuponsleep (andwakeup5hrslaterfeelingguilty) marathon.
BUT in my defence, sleeping 5hrs or less/night for 5 days straight is no joke.

Ice-cream, iced blended coffee, tiramisu and chocolate cake.
whooo I swear I'm gonna start gaining weight, which isn't a good thing, since there're guys in my class 10cm taller and lighter than me.
Go eat a cow, boy.

Never thought I'd say this but...............
yay there's chinese tmr! (hey, 1st time for everything)
It's another hour of nonsense talking, story telling, sweet eating, laughing @ sleeping people and tsktsking councillors who're paying less attention to the poor laoshi than us.
awesome

The one good thing about my nice shiny grade in GP,
is that I can sprout all the singlish I want without anyone thinking less of my linguistic ability.
sooo that's another yay? I guess? :)

2009-07-21T22:28:00.020+08:00

2009-07-20T23:33:00.004+08:00

why is it that I'm forever having nonsensical convos on msn at this time of the night?
o.o
It's like the witching hour, or something.

To-do:
-create groupings for the science centre thing, which I may or may not be going for.
-try not to annoy anyone too much

Gah I'm hanging around guys too much.
Good thing? Bad thing?
You tell me.

whooo econs tutorial tomorrow. Again. Here comes round3 of suanning.
From the tutor, no less.
Bring. It. On. *evil grin*

look here!

2009-07-19T23:17:00.007+08:00

Roll To Me - Del Amitri

click for full version
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~~I don't wanna go to school :(~~

I have decided:
that I'm not gonna be complacent. Or lazy.
It's always what screwed me up in the past,
and I am not gonna let it happen again.
[ especially since I'm not sure if I actually deserve what I have. Did I earn it? I don't know.
BUT I am going to try my very best (no matter how retarded this sounds), and if anyone still gives me crap about it...then, well... I'll set maryann on you! >:) ]

All the way.

Thank goodness for lovely wonderful ij friends
I honestly don't know what I'd do without you lot.
Wander around like some lost soul, probably.
Thanks for having my back.

2009-07-17T00:29:00.004+08:00

It's 12.29am.
I need to wake up in 5hrs.
Maths FA to study for.
GP AQ due.
What am I doing?
Talking with the backrow ppl on msn who are *separately* trying to get me not to do any of it and join them in getting screwed.

It's working.

haha this week just took a completely retarded turn.
(in a good way)

stressed-fueled writing (or, denise is in a bad mood go away)

2009-07-15T22:59:00.017+08:00

People... suck.

It's the unavoidable truth.

We're petty, mean, over-ambitious little things with massively fragile egos.
We get jealous too easily, lust over absurd material possessions and get angry at the most ridiculous things.
We expect people to put up with our hopelessly-flawed selves, and yet want others to epitomise perfection.
Fairness? psh.

It's absolutely insane how we manage to stand each other without trying to kill everyone else.

Oh, wait a minute, we are trying to kill everyone else (ie, the rest of the world).
What with all the nuclear bombs and ballistic missiles...
throw in freaky weather and devastating natural disasters, and it's a wonder how we're still managing to carry on with our everyday lives.

People....
suck.

And yet...
amidst all that... "sucking", sometimes we find those who... maybe, just maybe, suck slightly less than everyone else.
And then we hold on tight ~~(but not too tight)~~ to them, because who else will tolerate our moanings and grumblings and shortcomings and not just up and leave, like they so easily can?

We're flawed, and they're flawed, and so is everybody else, and would you really have it any other way?
Would you?
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Needless to say, I'm in a foul mood.
My inner pessimist has come roaring out in full force,
and I'm not sure why either.

Life's great,
I'm great,
we're all..... great.
Just great.

ilikethechallenge.ilikethechallenge.ilikethechallenge.
likethechallengelikethechallengelikethechallenge

2009-07-14T22:53:00.005+08:00

have you seen this Canon EOS 500D commercial?
ohgosh the tune is... ah! so catchy.
It's like... a happy drug or something :D
Can't seem to find the song online, though :(

econs was......................................
awkward, much??
whatthe%*(&*&^%$%^!!!!
I swear, I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die

2009-07-13T22:15:00.007+08:00

Reasons to :) :

#1 My pw group has finally started their engine, so to speak, and (I think) we're making progress.
I'm just asd;klfjgjhpi4wue relieved.

#2 I now have faith that my chinese is, by far, not the worse in class. Hurhur.

#3 I PASSED ECONS!! :D :D :D
Even after getting a big fat kosong for an essay question.
You have no idea how much that ROCKS.
I almost had a heart attack I tell you.

#4 I caught my 966 :)

#5 Managed to book tickets for the 6th Potter movie on friday!#6 That I A.N.Y

heal the world

2009-07-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

...because it could be gone all too soon.

It's been more than 2 weeks already.
Goodbye Michael,
you will be missed.

2009-07-11T01:01:00.006+08:00

I wanna rewind to this time last week!
Lovely extended weekend of slacking since MYEs were just over, and they hadn't gotten 'round to teaching anything new yet.

Comprised mainly of:
-sushi right after our chinese paper, just to rub it in a little
-trying to have a lie-in and then being woken up by a phone call from an obnoxiously cheerful caroline (I kid, I kid.)
-me breaking a ceramic mug and spilling punch over everyone else. whoops.
-card playing
-dinner at fish and co!
-hollering "Stop repeating everything I'm saying!" and "What vacuum cleaner?!?!" on the phone on a fully packed mrt and getting weird stares all around. (not that I blame them; I mean, I'd stare too)
[sacarsm] Thanks a lot, dude. [/sacarsm]
-going out with my backrow people and koping: fries, coke, sprite, a free drinks coupon and half a jacket.

Fastforward to today and what am I doing?
Stressing out over PbloodyW, trying to finish my math/econs/physics tutorials so I won't get thrown out of class, wondering what on earth SHM is all about and trying to ignore our close-to-bankrupt class fund since it's a pain to go around bugging people for cash, that's what.

GAH

And it's only the 2nd week of term.

Sports day got cancelled cos of the H1N1...
...and instead got replaced with more lessons.
whoopdedoo.

A lvl oral went okayish, I guess, by my standards. (which arn't really that high)
And I quote "after this, we won't have to speak chinese again!".

What does regret taste like?

A sour tang, a bitter aftertaste and a splash of jealousy.

bleah.
EOM awaits.
tgif, indeed.

2009-07-03T21:41:00.007+08:00

I don't think you should ever insult people unintentionally:
if you're doing it, you ought to mean it.
-taken from Neil Gaiman's blog

whoops.

In other less exciting news,
MYEs are finally over! after an eternity or two of mugging
(and passing random notes of "I'm hungry! *sadface*") in the library.

whooee!
:D

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Things I ought to do:
#1 File notes
#2 Revise for chinese koushi (cos let's face it, my chinese isn't good by anyone's standard)

Things I want to do:
#1 A whole lot of R&R. Basically, nothing lah.

Yes, well, we can't always get the things we want, now, can we?

2009-07-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

it's this morbid curiousity,
to see what rock bottom is like

Some people...

2009-06-29T23:15:00.006+08:00

lovely scene;
particularly from 0:56 onwards
:D

bring me down

2009-06-28T22:35:00.004+08:00

I'm so anti-social, sometimes it's a wonder I even have any friends :O

So thanks, thanks for being you.

2009-06-24T22:05:00.006+08:00

So...let's see;
mugging in the cj library was pretty productive on day1;
after which the dreaded Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility (trying to show off the fruits of my efforts, here :D) kicked in, and...weelll.. it pretty much went downhill from there until today,
where we took a record 2.5 hr lunch break and generally slept/chatted/got threatened by librarian the rest of the time away.

Guh.

Lunch today was quite..eh.. entertaining, which sort-of makes up for the lack of productivity. ~~Gossiping~~ Discussing the neurotic habits of certain......anal captains and playing scramble on nicole's iPhone was... yay!
I think I've mentioned this before but, JC is killing my imagination.
haha I think this makes it painfully clear.

A week + 2 days more;
and we're home free, baby!
:D

2009-06-20T21:12:00.005+08:00

credit where credit's due

yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me!

2009-06-17T23:46:00.005+08:00

-need/want new clothes! anyone wants to go shopping with me?
teenytiiinny problem though: I'm pretty much broke.

-Another reason why I'm not on facebook:
My dad has an acc! :O
*shockhorrorgasp*

-Lunch and shopping for presents with maryann tmr! :D
Silly girl spoilt her comp, so I haven't really had a chance to tell her all sorts of nonsense.

-I've decided to be less anti-social. It's my mid-year resolution.
Along with suanning people less and "stop putting important things off".

-Had the strangest dream last night. Ask me about it sometime, I might tell if I'm in a good mood.

-Ben & Jerry's strawberry cheesecake is <3!

-1000 awesome things

" #755 When you arrive at the bus stop just as the bus is
coming around the corner "

too true :)

Reminds me of this "thing" we do everytime we see a SMRT bus.
"Is it 985 or 966???"
"966! HAHA I win! byebye!" *cheeky grin*

-Looked through some of the inane msn convos we had at unholy hours in the past few years. Funny stuff!

whoa. It's tomorrow already.
whoosshh

2009-06-13T17:43:00.002+08:00

Fell asleep on the floor while "studying".

I now ache in places that shouldn't be aching.

My ears ache!! :O

cross junction

2009-06-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

Being game-master for the ltc was...an experience.

I went from hanging out with a girl and a bunch of guys on a daily basis to... well...
hanging out with a girl and a bunch of guys,
albeit different ones.

Cheering with that high-pitched whooo! was awesome too; since I don't think I'd get away with doing it in class.
Seriously, for a class full of noisy people, they're remarkably quiet when it comes to cheering.
Must be a guy thing.

But listing down all the crazy stuff that went on would not only be exhausting, but also mind-numbingly boring.
And I don't think my inner Narcissus needs any more encouragement.

Sooo... random highlights it is then, for all the lazy wretches (like me!).

!!! Long-winded rambling post ahead

Random highlight #1
Saw all kinds of leadership styles: the bochap type, the downright bossy ones... and I think my favourite, "the politicians" (ie, all talk, no action).

There was one group that wasted almost to 20minutes just talking about the instructions! Gosh.
Not like it helped them much, since they were one of the slowest, and from what I could see, lacking in teamwork.

I think I'm a little worried about the fact that they're supposed to be our "future leaders".
Maybe they just need time?
Whatever the case, I hope they wisen up soon, for the sakes of everyone.

Random highlight #2
Stuff we did to while the hours between groups away:
-Swapped horror stories with the guys, who were my male counterparts! Their class only has 3 guys! :O
haha they were complaining about the excess of screaming/cheering, and I was complaining about the lack of it!
-Got a lil smarter during day2, and brought a pack of cards along.
I think I just passed on our "gambling tradition"! haha
My little contribution to the CJ culture.
Funny what can count as entertainment to a bunch of bored folks like us.
-At one point in time we actually went to shoot some hoops with the balls that the basketball team oh-so-conveniently left unattended :D

Random highlight #3
I think I freaked out a little during the first few teams, since I didn't really get a chance to see how it was all supposed to go. But after a while, it was pretty fun, especially when I could conduct a game all by myself, without my ~~pathetic excuse of a~~ irritating "partner" .
(I use the term delicately).

Which leads me to...

Random highlight #4
"HE" got scolded by a senior facil, who later went to complain to the teacher.
Made our day I tell you! Bloody irritating bossy &^%*(*!!!

Gosh.
I sound like some petty bitter harpy now.
I'm just human, flaws and all.
And I'm willing to bet, it wasn't only me who felt just a little bit smug.

He was asking for it !! >:)

Random highlight #5
And you also get to see all the weird shit that people come up with to worm themselves out of a situation.

There's the cheeky "I think you're very pretty lah, let us pass" a la YanLing.
Flattered, I'm sure.
I almost started laughing I tell you, reminded me so much of her during our sec 2 days!

And then the AhBeng "Eh don't like that! What's wrong with you!".
...
Frankly, I'm not too sure which I'd rather prefer.

Not forgetting the rather... creative "Hey she's so short! Let's stand in front of her to block her view!"
HAHA wtheck.
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Sooo overall, a rather fun way to spend my 2 days;
I made some new friends, saw so many familiar faces... and sort-of learnt how to deal with crazy stressed out people (and I'm not even talking about the ltc participants, here).
Ohya and I met a fellow ijtp girl!

I think this's just proves the fact that we have this..."aura" thing-y.....?
I mean, we just.. clicked, and I was happily chatting with her for pretty long before I found out, so it wasn't like I was prejudiced or anything.

Plus, I've finally found someone new who shares my wicked sense of humour!
(and by wicked, I don't mean like evil, wicked. The other meaning.)
I swear, my sarcasm isn't fully appreciated in class! HAHA

Okay... I'm probably bordering on obnoxious here, so I'll stop. *insert smug grin*
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It's funny how, recently, most of the posts have an "I miss ij :(" thing going on.
It feels weird;
not getting a GoodLuck hug before papers
when we're all milling around outside the hall freaking out.
Bah.

bohemian rhapsody

2009-06-08T22:52:00.008+08:00

It's been appearing all over the place for me recently:
Bohemian Rhapsody.
In my book, "Don't forget the lyrics"...
(okaaayy so not exactly "all over the place")

Or maybe,
it's just 'cos I was looking for it,
that I'm seeing it everywhere..?
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Anyway, go check it out on youtube, Michael Johns style! -->here
whoa damn hot :D
He certainly does gives Freddy Mercury a run for his money..!

Oh and,

Happy Birthday Livia!
(haha I don't think you're reading this, though)
Let's go out for dinner sometime;
cos dinner's that much better than boring ol' lunch

:D

haha please don't kill me for putting this up here!
I think this one's my favourite of the batch;
just because.
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suanning's not an art;
it's a way of life
.....
ohhhgosh did I just type that??
must've been the flu meds screwing with me
:O

This is why we don't go out on Saturday nights.

2009-05-31T16:27:00.007+08:00

The original plan:
Catch the 6.25pm Angels and Demons show at marina sq, and then head over to the ice-cream buffet thing for supper.

What we actually did:
Couldn't get tickets for any show, so we went bowling at the oh-so-convenient bowling alley next door.
Afterwhich we went trying, and failing, to find $9 shirts.
AND THEN wandered over to the Esplanade for a bit of uh... phototaking.

This's why I don't trust in our plans.

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Here're some quotes from that night:

"Cats are hot."
"Ehh I'll blow on the bowling ball for luck!"

"ouch."

"Ohhhhmygosh is that Br Paul?!" (yes, it was)
"HAHA maryann and her orange mushroom ball"
"Let's take a picture of the baby's view of the world!"
"He looks like ELMO!"
"Why are the shops all closed?? IT'S SATURDAY."

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Whoosh
I'm feeling strangely free this June hols.
Is that a good thing?

study break

2009-05-27T16:42:00.005+08:00

No school today, cos CJ has things called "study breaks" where we can all stay home to mug; which, incidently, I think is a pretty darn good idea.

"I'm on a study break."
whoa it even sounds damn cool
haha
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Call me slow, but I've had the realisation that I'm in a class full of smelly boyyss whack me in the face
:(
It's times like these that I miss ij loads and loads.

Who knew guys could be so... bitchy?
Bitchy guys. An oxymoron if there ever was one.
pssh
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On the upside, I sincerely hope I do well, if not okayish, for MYs, cos I can't wait to go for OCIP at the end of the year!

whoa, mood swings, much?

2009-05-25T17:36:00.002+08:00

deep breath in.
face your fears;
and here we go

2009-05-24T16:11:00.006+08:00

Caught the drama showcase at acjc, theasthai, yesterday, which thankfully, was worth the trouble of missing the bus(stop) and trying to get directions to Broadway from an uncooperative sean.
Did that even make any sense? Chem has addled my brain.

Anywayy, the monologues were really really, for want of better word, good.
(gotta stop using these 4 letter words; gp MYs next thursday. Really denise, what's next? "Nice"?? Tsktsk, shame on you.)
I think the ones that really stood out, for me, were "Good girls don't wait", "The liar", "Little red the hood", "The nanny diaries" and most of all "Phobophillia".

" You are now thinking I’m panophobic, fear of everything, but I’m really
polyphobic, fear of several things. There's a slight difference, you see. "

:D

Basically anything that so much as made me crack a smile, since it's a relieve to have a laugh at humour that doesn't involve bodily function.
Something of a rarity, for me, since guys outnumber the girls 11.5 to 1 in class.
There're 25 students per class. Do the math.

Bottom line: the monologues were nothing short of inspiring. Sorta made me want to join theater! Which is a huge thing, coming from the girl who hated drama class so much she cried during the presentation in front of all the parents. This was when I was 3, mind, so it's not like I go about crying over every little thing now.
That's sean.
Just thought I'd make things clear.
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For the record, I'm not a cynic, I'm a realist;
bordering on an optimist even.
In all honesty, I'm the type who'll melt into a sentimental pile of goo at the cheesiest line.
What I don't like is paper-thin plots riddled with holes and unrealistic characters that can be described with a word or two; one of which is "pretty"??
So no, I'm not a cynic. Most of the time.
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On to more mundane things...
Studying for GP is a little surreal. I get to read all the editorials and articles I want! :D
Okay, that just made me sound like the literature-deprived little person that I am.
I hope to heck that I'll get a least a C, since I've only ever done 1 compo and 1 compre so far..?!
Not good, not good.

Crash course on touch rug during PE on friday.
I don't think I remember much, 'cept that if the guys start coming towards me I should start screaming..?? HAHA
I kid, I kid.

Adam who? Krys who? David Cook's still better than the lot of 'em I say!
ahahaha *insert evil grin here*

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Happy (early) Birthday Mary Ann!
It's your 17th; I think you've hit enough people already.
Keep drawing and don't ever lose your creative spark.
I'll always be here if you need to talk (ie, share the gossip.)!
haha

Yours always,
Denise

touch rug

2009-05-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

haha
denise is going to learn how to play touch rugby tomorrow.
I hope I can make it back with all my body parts still intact!

guerilla art

2009-05-17T14:24:00.006+08:00

Saw this in the papers today and thought I'd check it out.

the national geographic store, singapore

whoa super cool, I hope I'll see one one of these days around town!
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I like to think that
my writing reflects my state of mind a lot.
It's currently in
a freaking mess.
Both of 'em.
Not good, not good.
For both my gp grade,
and my mental health.

jc's killing my imagination! :o

Oh dear gott
Looking back on all the '09 posts so far...
ouch.
Absolutely cringe-worthy.

Time to wake up, dear girl.
Wake up and smell the reality of it all.

A-Z

2009-05-17T14:03:00.000+08:00

Anxious: overly so?
Books: not enough
CHIJ: missing it
Daydreaming: too often
Essays: ohbloodycrap
Flying: not too high, lest your wings melt.
GPP: screwed
How wonderful life is,...?
Idyosyncracies: treasure them
Junk food: soo goood
Kismet happens
Love: purely platonic. Period.
Math: killer
Nocturnal: is what I'm turning into
Opposite sex: is weird
Project work: taxing
Queuing for food: a thing of the past :D
Regrets: go away
School: confusing and funny and disappointing and everything else in between.
Tanked.
Until a brighter day
Vital: wonderfully crazy friends
Writing skills: on vacation
X'mas: 7 months, 1week and a day away
Yes.
Zeal: still searching

2009-05-14T22:40:00.005+08:00

Today was a bad ~~hair~~ day.
Let me just crawl into my bed and wait for tomorrow to come.

ouch my cheeks hurt;
from all the forced smiling

BAH
it's friday tomorroww!
please let it be a good day.

2009-05-09T20:41:00.011+08:00

Move over, Saturday, Friday's now officially my favourite day of the week.

Lunch at tp hub yesterday with the usual bunch from class, and someone mention how it was "my turf" or something, cos it was around 3+ and there were so many ij girls walking around after school.
Personally, it felt lovely to see the good ol' pinefore again (since mother dear happily chucked all my old uniforms out, without asking me). The blouse, the belt, the wonderfulwonderful blue.
I think one of the few things I miss the most about ij, after the teachers, the friends, the environment, the masses for special events... is the uniform.
Isn't it ironic?
I mean we've spend the past few years complaining about how we have to button the blouse all the way to the top, how the bloody french didn't use their grey matter when designing uniforms to be worn the tropics, how we've been wearing it for 10 years straight... It just goes on, doesn't it?

And now here we are.
Oh, how far we've come.

The most under-appreciated thing about the pinafore is, I think, the colour. I mean, you can spill all kinds of crap on it, and it won't show. Compared to the cj one...
Yes, well, "toilet cleaner" and "factory worker-blue" just doesn't have to same ring to it.
I'm now known as the one who's forever spilling food on herself..?!
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Moving on...
Went for syf presents last night, pretty last minute decision.
Very deja vu moment (see: last year's band concert).
We sat a few rows of where we did originally, with maryann on the left, again, and nicole MIA; also again.
Saw so many ij girls on the bus! hahaha
Played musical chairs around the PAC until we somehow found ourselves sitting behind my class people.
Choir and the contemp dance were especially good, I feel.
I want to dance like that!

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Went out with louann & co. a few saturdays ago for dinner at astons! Really nice to see them again and catch up on all the...eh.. gossip. Sleepover in June! Preferably in a big house, please.
Hahaha
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It's funny , I've been trying to make a change. Just going for it; taking the more inane choice.
And then.. well... Here I stand. Again. At this same spot that I was a couple of years ago.
It was supposed to be different, you know? A fresh start; the start of something new; and what other overused clichés...
Maybe it's for the better, yeah?
Keep telling yourself that, love.
....
Goodnight, and goodluck.

PI

2009-05-02T15:26:00.002+08:00

The internet, for all its usefullness, can sometimes be bloody irritating.

Google has failed me! :O

math test

2009-04-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

*cue ohshit moment*
nrrgghhh

Then again, it could've been worse.

quickie

2009-04-28T21:43:00.006+08:00

msn is being irrelevant again.
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A quick update:
2 of the most common statements made to me recently:

#1. "Eh is that a 'u'? or a 'n'?" (it was really an 'x'. It's not my handwriting that's the problem, it's your eyes! Yes, all three of you who asked me that in the last week.)

#2. "Eh are you Singaporean?"
...or something along those lines. Yes, I am. No, I'm not a foreign scholar. No, I'm not a Malay. Yes, I do, in fact, speak Chinese; (of questionable quality, but that's another matter all together)

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I think my mood-swingy-ness is scaring people away.
oh well

Elephant love medley is less than 3 :D

2009-04-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

Gosh I feel old.
And yet.. it's like being back in primary school again.
Just instead of "I don't fwen you neemore",
it's "eff off"

2009-04-17T21:41:00.005+08:00

It has certainly been a friday like no other.
And I mean that in a good way. :D
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-almost late for school.
Blame the big cars at dover blocking the lanes.
Was still on time in the end, so no worries. It certainly breaks the normal school routine for a change.

-bloody awful econs lecture. What a waste of an hour. We got scolded for flipping our notes?!
And he pretty much regurgitated the notes. Word by painful word.

- PE
The good: sunglasses-dude didn't come.
The price: 21 GSTs. Yes, you saw that right. Tenty-one. With hopping on the prime numbers.
And I'm proud to say I completed every single one.
Without getting muscle aches. :)

-Filming of the tackles was a crazy affair. What with the rushing and all to find willing and able (gosh gotta stop with the economics) ~~victims~~ people to be tackled, after our main actor bailed.

Our sales pitch went something like this:
"Hey do you want to be on camera? It's for our project!"
The guy was actually convinced at this point,
BUT he didn't stick around after finding out what he had to do.
hahaha

We did manage to finish it in the end, thank goodness.

HAHA I just went through the tape. It's gonna end up on youtube I tell you!

-Lunch at macs today was pretty darn awesome.
What consitutes as a "pretty darn awesome" lunch in my book:

#1 cheap food

#2 good company
#3 jokes that sometimes don't come with punchlines, but isn't stingy on the LOL factor
(one of which involves some kid threatening us with his toy gun. I kid you not.)
#4 ladle on with generous scoops of laughter

-Waited at the wrong place for the SMO for half an hour. After climbing up 5 floors. And running all the way from the overhead bridge.
Tried, and failed, to sneak in quietly into the LT.
2 hours managed to pass quite fast, surprisingly, thanks in part to unintentional(?) humour..!
It takes a person of certain talents to make ceva's theorem sound like a hokkien swear word.
haha
You know who you are.

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And that was an amazingly detailed account of my friday.
It just sounds worse on ~~paper~~ computer screen.
Good moments in life often are, I find;
you have to be living in that exact moment, experiencing all the little things that made it so wonderful, to know what you were missing out on.
Trust me.

insanity

2009-04-08T21:31:00.005+08:00

What was it Einstein said about insanity, again?

shit. I hate sudden realisations.
No warning, no signals, just... WHAM.
Hence the sudden part.
It bloody hurts too.
worse than that, is the confusion.

What the heck am I doing??

But even worse is the creeping niggling feeling that perhaps... maybe I oughtn't be doing this?
I mean, there's gotta be more, right? If there isn't... well, then...
that will, for want of better word, really suck.

whatever happened to the passion, the freedom, the pure unadulterated rush of happiness?
They must be living in sandcastles somewhere
in the sky.

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Anyway, moving on from the teenage angst... I have decided that:
I will not procrastinate.
Why put off to tomorrow what can be done today, aye?

....

Actually I can think of a million and one reasons, but in the spirit of self-betterment and all, I shan't mention any.
Buck up denise, stop slacking off and giving everyone else grief. Honestly, you're a horrid person.

Things that went right:
#1: I caught my bus just in time 2 days in a row. must be my lucky charm :)
#2: GP. I've still got it. Nice to know I'm good in something.
#3: Spent 2 hours talking to sean about crap. Totally worth it.
#4: Going out with nicole & malsy for ~~lunch~~ ~~dinner~~ lunner? tomorrow.
#5: Good Friday= more Zzzz
#6: It's the last day of school (for the week) tomorowww :D

" Sometimes people are beautiful.
Not in looks.
Not in what they say
Just in what they are. "

-from one of my personal favourites.
See if you know me well enough to guess.
And yes, using Google is cheating.

buggre alle this for a lark

2009-03-29T17:37:00.006+08:00

1. I need time and nice books to read. The lack of good literature is slowly killing my poor soul.

2. I'm going to end up growing sideways (not vertically, which sucks majorly) due to:
-my newly cultivated fast-eating habits
-workload is making me binge on chocolate/ice-cream
-lecture theatres are too bloody cold in the morning, which makes me want to eat unhealthily large amounts of food any chance I get

3. I want to watch Watchmen!
Buuttt...
-I have no time
-same goes for cash
-I can't even pass as my own age, what more eightbloodyteen

4. I want to meet up more often!
A few minutes every other day is just pathetic.

5. I need to dig deep for some ittybit of motivation to start mugging again.
as nice as my class is, it's not very condusive for that

/endrant

PI here I come!

tgif

2009-03-27T20:48:00.003+08:00

Thankgoodnessit'sfriday
And thankwhoever'slisteningupthere I don't have any boy troubles.
I don't fancy anyone enough to chase after them; and no one fancies me enough to stalk me!
HAHA
Life's great, even with the stress and workload and the absolute lack of time and crappy spur-of-the-moment decisions and...

ya.

Sudden epiphany today;

whoa I didn't really realise that we're so similar till recently.

It's good to know, though.

march hols

2009-03-21T23:14:00.003+08:00

It's already saturday!
Still need to finish econs project!
And we haven't even started on the presentation. :O
CRAP

cjc is scary;
in the sense that it's so interconnected;
everyone knows someone who knows someone who knows their church friend/ig-mate/class-mate/ex-classmate/cousin...
You get the idea.

Sooo I think I'm better off keeping my mouth shut, lest someone who knows someone's cousin's classmate's secondary school friend gets word.
At this rate, I'm probably gonna become a mime!
bleah

Been going out almost everyday this week, and coming back later than usual, it's been great.
Lucky my dad's still in a good mood from the liverpool-man u match
HAHA

There isn't enough hours in a day! Seriously.

It is written

2009-03-14T17:01:00.003+08:00

Being a little stoned from flu meds helps when doing physics tutorials. Seriously.

Anywayy, yesterday was a good day, despite the ominous "Friday the 13th" thingy because...

...I shared chocolate cake, and then realised I had a flu. whoops. Better a flu bug than bits of the plastic knife in it, though.
...I went back to ij and got dragged along to meet teachers, which isn't as bad as it sounds. Really.
...Finally went to watched Slumdog Millionaire, which made my tiring week that much better
...And most of all, we finally met up after the longest time, and talked about, amongst other things, the horror of PE lessons, lazy schoolmates, weird uniforms, even weirder lecturers....
Annd we still haven't run out of things to talk about. I think I need to continue a few conversations on wednesday in a particular Indian restaurant in chinatown.
And this isn't some codename, mind you, I'm referring to an actual place.

"Eh what happened to all the J1 boys ah? Did they all fall into a vat of acid and come out disfigured??"
HAHA
I can't remember who said this, but it seemed pretty funny at that time.

smurfs

2009-03-07T19:15:00.005+08:00

I can't wait for next friday!

I can't wait to share some gossip and play bridge and laugh about silly little nothings and go back to ij and... ahh!

Ican'twaitIcan'twaitIcan'twait

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I survived x-country at macritchie! whoohoo!

CAs next week, and I'm askjfhyewrvpod scared that I won't meet expectations, cos my class's full of closet muggers who I bet you can finish the test without studying, half-asleep, and thinking about some girl from the next door class.
GAH

On a slightly brighter note, thank goodness my birthday's in January.
I want many things in life.
Swimming with the koi in the pond isn't one of them.

2009-03-02T22:44:00.002+08:00

Still short.
Still tired.
Happy anyway.

oh goodness, when did I become so whiney?!
someone slap me, please.

Having sane convasations is becoming something of a rarity recently.

Denise's March resolution is to survive 7 rounds of GST.

mugmugMUG

ready. set. GO

2009-02-26T18:22:00.005+08:00

" Thieves respect property. They merely wish the property to become their
property that they may more perfectly respect it. " -GK Chesterton

#1 IG dinner was fun and noisy and full of corny jokes and laughter and simply.. awesome, even though about half was MIA.

#1.5 Plus, I saw Louann! Amidst the bunch of AJC girls staring at us! I think I now know why people say they can recognise IJ girls once they start talking.

#2 My class is slightly... off kilter. And I mean that in the nicest way possible. Honest! Hahaha

#3 You know how people're saying that this's the worst financial crisis since the 1930s? To be absolutely honest, I don't really feel it yet, not even a bump on the road. I hope it stays that way.

#4 Mass P.E. tomorrow. Again.

#5 I'm now firmly in the believe that IJ is where the best friendships are made, the type that (hopefully) spans over decades till we're old and wrinkly and complaining about "kids these days."

Brush your teeth
Wash your hands
Don't forget to fly

2009-02-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

So a week has passed, and amidst all the lectures and tutorials and ghastly amounts of homework, I've managed to figure out that:

-I'm not sure if this refers to guys in general, or just the fellows in my class, but their sense of humour kicks in at very... odd times.
Like they ended up talking about elephants, crocs and nat geo during a physics tutorial???
what the h-e-double toothpicks
-I actually kinda like GP. Though I think I'm probably gonna regret saying this.
-All the codewords we've created for one reason or another is making me feel like some cold war agent.
D'you know what/who fungi friend, curvalacious plant, catwoman, bright spots, dim spots, mushroom boy refers to? If so, then congratulations, you're in our inner circle.
-It feels weird not to thank a teacher at the end of the lessons with "Thank you and God bless you, Mr/Ms/Mrs ___". It's been an automatic part of my life for the past 10 years that I've taken it for granted. So now, it's turning into: "Thank you and G-, Mr/Ms/Mrs ___", cos I still can't shake it off.
-I have a cheena accent that kicks in when I'm under stress
-My ego took a pretty big hit, but I think I know what I'm doing
-People do change. For the better, for the worse, sometimes both. I'm not sure if I want to be part of that.

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This week's been pretty good, on the whole, I think
Weekdays pass faster and weekends are passing at a more leisurely pace.
Soooo.. yah.
Ta

Finale night

2009-02-08T20:22:00.003+08:00

Finale night went out with a bang yesterday, and marked the end of our 6-day orientation to the wonderful world that is cjc.
Everyone was high like nobody's business!
I think we (sorta) mastered the mass dance, and there was this adreneline rush when we were done with it. woohoo!
Lucky we weren't caught on film during one of the mass dance practices, cos it would have been super embarrassing, especially during the turning thing in 3-6-9. Our facil was like scolding us "wah how come both partners have two left feet!" hahahahaha
I still miss my IG loads and loads, which sounds crazy, cos we've only known each other for six days, but still...
We really should have an IG outing one of these days!
It's back to school and 1T14 again tomorrow and I hope it all goes well.

cheers!

Go hestia, go hestia, you've got me burnin' up
The gods be loving me, they all be hating me,
and they will never stop!
Cos they know I'm so
hot! hot! HOT!
Gooooooo Hestia!
*random noise* hahaha

how are you feeling?

2009-02-05T18:43:00.013+08:00

Orientation is funfunfun..!

-The mass dance is silly (in a good way).
I've yet to meet anyone who can actually remember all the steps, so plenty of confused stares and laughter all around.
But the sweaty palms are...ewww. The again, I should be used to it since nicole leong is my friend.
-Some cheers are pretty odd (my house has a cheer about ecstasy, and I heard one IG's cheer that went: "Your father no hair!" hahahaha)
-Dragon boating at kallang was fun, even though my right arm aches
-The games aren't quite as bad as I thought it would be, but the telematch wasn't as fun as the previous games, for some reason. Maybe it's because we didn't get to chuck stuff at the other team.
-I realised I still can scream the high-pitched, hair-curling, scream that only girls can produce, even with a sore throat. Which I did, when people threw stuff at us.
-The facils are super high!

And that's what makes it so awesome.

I like IG11:D. The girls aren't too ~~bitchy~~ whiny, and the guys aren't too violent.
[Another group had guys who practically threw us off the chair during one of the games! o:]

I miss the ij blue :(

I'm scared for school to start...!
~~whatifwhatifwhatifwhatif~~
IcandoitIcandoitIcandoit
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...Wonderful!

JC jokes

2009-01-31T20:49:00.005+08:00

Saw this on some person's blog recently, and it made me crack up after all the drama about appealing (or the lack of) and whatnot.
Credits go to whichever smart chap came up with it.
Not meant to offend anyone, since it pokes fun at most of the jcs and their stereotypes,
so please don't sue a poor student like me.

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They'll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they're able to change it for ACJC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They'll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows* )

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?

Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let's do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They'll find ways out of the dark.

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.
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For the record, I'm slightly disappointed with the jae postings, but secretly glad (does that make sense to you? It does to me.). Going to acjc would've brought too much baggage.
Buttt I'm getting tired of the whole "wah liao how come you ended up in cjc" rubbish. Stop bugging me about my jc postings, and I'll stop shoving my english grade in your face.

Denise thanks you for your cooperation.

On a more upbeat note, I learnt how to play bridge, even though we were all cowards with the betting, courtesy of louann and company. Ahahahaha... That was an afternoon well spent. And I think I got abs from all the laughing!
Whoooossshh

of neon undies and claustrophobically small islands

2009-01-30T18:30:00.008+08:00

elementum~ says:
i want to be a cloud so i can slack all day ahahhaahah
nicole says:
that's quite a weird metaphor
nicole says:
cloud got to move about you now
nicole says:
*know
¿đenise says:
mountain then
nicole says:
mountain very fat
nicole says:
and heavy
nicole says:
and ppl trek all over you

This, ladies and gentlemen, is a classic example of pre-jc/post-posting jitters/frustrations/bitterness/resignation.

Bleah
At least I can forge my own path.
So there.

edit: I'm in grp 11 for the orientation for cjc, so wave if you see me! cheers

2009-01-28T11:55:00.000+08:00

The Show - Lenka

This's my current song-on-repeat :D

happy year of the ox

2009-01-26T22:21:00.003+08:00

gong hei fat choi!

So it's that time of the year again. But somehow I'm not really in the festive mood this year.
hmmm...

On a side note,
my dad's cousin's two-and-a-half year old son (did you get that?) is absolutely adorable..!!
He can only say "tank kew" and "buhbye" and gives everyone a goodbye kiss;
and has these big eyes and mutters in his own made-up language (with a british accent!), so no one really knows what he's trying to say.

And have I mentioned that he's the sweetest little non-bratty toddler I've seen...?
awww...
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Here's to fending off personal questions regarding jc choices and o level results from nosey relatives.
Cheers!